It's been over half a year since the last post. The blog was pretty much down-to-the-core lifeless. But no matter what, it serves a purpose: acting as an open journal. Whatever's on anyone's mind, this is a medium that is usually always available. If I want to say something and I'm completely alone, I might as well jot some things down here. The joyous, the ineffable, the aggravating, the grand, whatever.
Too much has been happening since the end of the Spring 2010 semester. All the events equate to just one point: I'm changing. Not my personality or the way I go about my tasks, but just some minor aspects of life that I treat differently nowadays. I used to be a heavier drinker -- safe drinker, mind you -- but recently I found myself taking only a couple of beers for social purposes. I wouldn't trash myself like I used to freshman and sophomore year. Hell, I barely get even buzzed or tipsy now. Instead of diving into a group of drunkards, I stay back and just monitor the environment.
And I'm definitely not the only one who changed in that manner. A lot of my close friends have become more -- how should I put this -- responsible. Maybe, classier? No longer is beer and hard liquor the thing. Now it's wine. Wine in conservative doses. Wine on occasion.
I don't think we can help it either. We simply grew out of the activities. I can definitely enjoy a beer here and there, a glass of wine to sip on, a flashy cocktail, etc. Just once in a while, though. I don't mind the music blasting in the background. I don't mind having a disgustingly sticky kitchen counter. I don't mind the periodic parties. But how I act during parties today is noticeably different from how I act in parties in the past.
Calm. Collected. Reserved. I could be described as such in the past, but I think right now I'm a few standard deviations above whatever I was. It's odd. What happened? I'm not against it at all, I like this newfound maturity. Less trouble and stress, more productivity and respect.
Then again, now I'm this boring, laid-back senior who doesn't do much but work, work, work. Either work, work, work or talk about subjects that the majority of the population -- or the younger kids -- don't give an elephant's ass about.
I take pride in honing whatever skills I may have now, in anticipation that they will serve me well in the future. I try and take care of the new freshman class -- if I can -- or at least new people in general, just so I may leave a lasting impression that not everyone in Binghamton is wack. Well, that's not entirely true... there are only a handful of wack people in Bing that I know of. But still, I do want to leave a nice impression. A legacy, maybe.
Sometimes I find myself saying things to people I would normally not say. Usually I stick with humorous, nonsensical talk. Or some things about entertainment and sports. But now, I give way more advice than I used to. All these experiences gathered up through the last four years; it's surely piling up now. I remain modest, as a rule of thumb, regardless of how people may perceive me. As for my own opinion, I'll still just go with the flow. Changing bit by bit in mindset is merely an outcome of going with the flow.
Eh, anyway. I just want to graduate. Nothing really outstanding to look forward to but that. That, and life after graduation.
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